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You can't blame my emotion, Because you should know it will never fade away.
When I'm alone, tomorrow feels far away. And even though I'm in the darkness of dawn, I have to go.
I don't care about "bad affinity".
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[Sunday, September 24, 2006]
ok!..yours truly is back from tekong..2 weeks of hell just passed..now is the start of 11 weeks of more hell..lol..anyway..my experience in tekong is too long for me to type..being the lazy me..i shan't say much..anyway..if u wanna know..can sms me..i will reply u only when i got time..but please identify yourself coz the handphone i using don't have all ur numbers..yup.. 3 more hrs to booking in..sian..bye bye S'pore..hello tekong again?..haha..lol..ok la...i go liaoz..miss ya guyz.. [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [5:37 PM] [Tuesday, September 05, 2006] this shall be my last entry before you can see me again in another 2 weeks..or more.. yup..going to Tekong this friday for my first official day to NS..from a boy to a man..haha..i love that.. anyway..lets start from saturday onwards..that was my first saturday that i slacked at home from morning to afternoon and at the same time..that was my last saturday that i can slack at home..hehe..after that went to meet up with the people in campsite as they have finished their FD accred..went to eat our "dinner" at macdonalds before heading to Circular Rd TCC gathering cum talk cock session..many people came..and we talk cock..was supposed to celebrate Huda's birthday, but apparently it was somewhat of a farewell to..err.. my hair?..lol..anyway..Alvin EE made a video..thanks to Huda, QingXiang, Jason, P1, P2, Wilson Boey & Teo, Jocelyn, Shuting, Vincent, Hongyi, Ambrose, Joan, Mizael, Yvonne Chua, David Goh, Nicky, Alvin Ee, Joshua, Max, Vanessa, Yingsheng, Yuhui, Qihui, cheekeong and alot more if i didn't mention ur names..hehe.. anyway, TCC was quite fun without some people around..(those who know what am i referring to, pls keep it to yourself..haha).. yup..followed by a supper session with the usual gang..den i and p2 went to kbox at Cine leisure and we sang from 1am all the way to 6am..haha..i think we went crazy singing some songs by F4 and 5566..haha..for more information..please visit Joan's blog or www.youtube.com haha..if you happen to see it..dun be shock..haha.. sunday was a slackers day..last sunday..so must cherish..a day for the family..so i'll be guai and stay at home..haha..yeah..had dinner with family..been weeks since i had a proper one with them..heh.. today..went to meet up with qingxiang and hongyi to army market to buy my stuff..then went to Carrefour to purchase other essential stuff before going to HQ to wait for p2..been chasing p2 from 6-7 pm before we can go to Suntec to meet up with minghuA ah yi!!! haha..yeah..the lost soul that hasn't been updated about RC stuff for so long..lol..yup..and i finally got 3 cards and i gotten my VIP card for pasta mania!!!..haha..finally..TCC and pasta mania..lol.. yup..now back home...2 more days to enjoy before i enlist into army...man..i start to miss my life and my friends...but i'll be back..haha..dun worry..haha advice n thanks to my friends:- p2: haha..you're the first one that i wanna thanking coz maybe if i thank you first u'll treat me better when u see me next time..haha..thanks for the talk cock sessions and stuff..just dun stress out urself too much..also..please knock off at the time that you're suppose to knock off..no point sloggin for RC when u're given such pay..u better take care..late working nites isn't healthy..and lastly..WORK CAN NEVER BE FINISHED!!..enjoy while you can..=] p1: you also another one..but slightly better than p2..haha..yup..hope that the next time i see u, i'll call u aunty soon instead of p1..haha..yup..thanks for everything u have done n helped me..if i dun have this aunty..i'm sure to canot make it...haha..=X Xinyi (PTS): ahaha..surprised to see ur name here?..haha..ok la..good luck for ur promos when i'm not around..and stop thinking about him..haha..u already have me and still wan him..haha.. dun be greedy..haha..thank you for being a very gd friend..i miss ur complains and bi*ching..duno whether next time i got time to hear u bi*ch n stuff..haha..jus concentrate on ur promos..jiayou!!..oh yah..i wan my ice cream!!..haha..better meet you out someday to claim back my ice-cream..yup..dun worry so much abt him..and do take care yeah..=] I’ll miss you a lot PTS..hehe..dun wanna say more mushy stuff here..=] jason: ah..this dota counterpart..never fail to dota at night and wake up early..haha..ya..thanks for the dota sessions these past few days..haha..dun sleep so late liaoz..bad for health..haha..take care manz and..have a nice holiday..will miss the dota sessions with you..lol.. qingxiang: yes..the guy that i can click very well on..ahaha..a great leader in west district..haha..i'll see you soon in NS..next time will be my turn to send you off..haha..anyway.. good luck with (you know what am i talking about)..don't worry too much abt it...the grass is greener on the other side..haha..yup..thanks for crappin n advices you gave..haha..sure to have fun wif you around..hehe..will miss ya.. Ambrose: MY GAY PARTNER!!!..ok la...really have to thank you for alot of things that i can't list them out all here..too long..haha..ya..one of the days after i come out..we'll gay together and promote more gayism in RC..haha..yup..take care man..dun worry so much abt RC stuff..your hair is starting to turn white soon..haha..yup..will miss you and ur gayism..dun gay ard while I not around..haha..if not I’ll shave off ur head…lol.. Alvin Ee: Thanks Alvin for being always everywhere..although I know that you like to sit my car a lot..and take advantage of my car..but haha..u’ve been a great friend and help in my years of RC..will miss you also when I inside..haha..and Alvin..ORD in 2 months time!! Haha..argh..PINK IC!! Haha…=] Chee Keong: haha..ORD soon also ah!!..will definitely miss you, Ee, max, josh, huda and david..you guys bring fun and laughter into my life..ORD liao dun show off pink ic hor..if not I break ur pink ic!! Haha..jk jk..lol..=] Max, Joshua: haha..i’ll join both of you soon..den we can form the botak head gang..haha..yup..miss the fun and laughter from you guys…we shall hold more TCC sessions next time after I’m out..and supper also!! Haha..take care Guys!!..=) David (ah benG): ahaha..yea..ORD soon too?..haha..yea..heard u’re sick..yup take care..faster go get car!!..den we can all drive!! Weee..haha..i’ll miss you too also..next time when I ORD..we are drivers too!! Haha..takE care manz!! =] Alison: hey youngest member in the piggy family haha..dun cheonG so much liaoz la..bad for your health..lol..concentrate on your studies dun thInk so much about him..HaHa..will miSs ya a lot..takE care of yourself..if not I ask Clara to discipline you..ahaha..take care yah..! =) Clara: yaya..i know you miss me coZ I’m not working..haha..dun miss me hor..haha..i still wanna say I admit I miss you itcy bitcy tiny bit only..haha..yup..takE care alritez?..if got time go discipline on Alison..haha..shE chEong-ing too much..haha..but u dun go follow her footstep and chEong also ah!! Haha..gooD luck in ur perm job!!..=] Wilson Teo: haha..yah..CSM..u think I’ve forgotten you?..haha..thankS for being everywhere..you’ve been a good friend..hehe..next time when I got time..we got eat supper ok?..haha..will definitely miss you manz..tAke care and good luck in ur studies..hehe.. To a particular someone: Tu Zi..i know you won’t be reading my blOg..yah..just wanna tell you that I’ll miss you a lot a lot when I go into NS..won’t be hearing from you soon..yah..if I got time I’ll date you someday ok?..hehe..gonna graduate liaoz dun be lazy..work hard and jiayou..get ur driving license liaoz must come drive me around ah..haha..i wanna see ur driving skills..lol..yup..take care and miss yA..remember to miSs me ok?..although I think u won’t..haha..=] To the rest: to all my friends whom I didn’t mention above..pls dun be disheartened that u’re not here..you are always remembered by me when I go into NS..hehe..if I got time..i meet you all up ok?..haha..take care and good luck in wadever you Do and wherever you go..=] [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [1:51 AM] [Saturday, August 12, 2006] another boring week..everyone of my RC fwens is down at National Camp..while i'm here..rotting i think..anyway..didn't have much of a exciting life this week..coz its National Day.. basically rot during national day..didn't have a sense of patriotism at all..haha..yah.. yesterday went down to reccee the venue for first aid competition..got basically an idea what will be going on for that day...as well as being OIC for 3 different component..i can basically die there if anything screwed up..anyway..2 more weeks..to the event...less than 1 month to NS..duno how my life would be in this few weeks and days.. always felt hopeless ever since that then..i duno even what am i thinking..many asked me many things..but i don't have the courage to say it out..let alone let anyone know..i know many people wanna know what is happening in my life.. but i just don't have the courage to tell you all..i know i've made many mistakes in life..which i have gradually changed overtime..whether is it in relationships or friends..but there's one thing i can't understand..why must it happened in this way..well..blame on my life..i just have to live with my bitter life..w/o blaming anything or anyone.. Tag Replies: elizabeth> haha..13 years old little girl..=] my way of typing is not for people to understand..but to feel..if u don't know how i write..den u won't understand how i feel..ritez?..and about the arrogent part..compliment is a section to compliment my blog layout not ME!!..and testimonial..unless u don't have people writing testimonial in friendster..if not u can't say i'm arrogent..haha.. fran> don't imagine..u wouldn't wanna know..haha.. esther> haha..maybe..i'll..if i have the time..but if no time..den wait..haha.. wen> huh?.. [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [8:48 PM] [Sunday, August 06, 2006] yes..counting down..1 more month to NS..i should say i'm anticipated?..excited?..probably no feeling at all..well..has been a good week i must say..jus bothered about some stuff.. ya..we talked just now..i can feel his determination and decision to leave..i can't stop him from leaving..its his own life and his own decision. what i can tell you my friend, take a break from it, we'll still welcome you back if you want to come back. heh..take care my friend..=] these past few days have been feeling some uneasiness when i met him..i always got that feeling that he is purposely ignoring me or probably because i'm not going up to talk to him?..i feel kind of regretful about the money issue..i always tried my best to chase back whatever things i can..but end up..it got delayed..i think is this issue that you're ignoring me?..or perhapes i'm just thinking too much?.. i'm not sure..always felt regretful about owing you these stuff..if these things can't be chased back, i'll have to pay him back from my own pocket then..can't let him handle the amount alone..sigh.. ok...isn't a good week for me i guess..lost hope in some stuff..sigh.. nothing much to say liaoz... badminton tmr..will try to blog about that..heh..off i go.. [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [1:42 AM] [Monday, July 31, 2006] kay..as the title says..i'm not in a good mood and not in a bad mood.. i can't understand some people even myself..i know that some people want me to do this, i do for them..some people want me to do that, i do for my friends without any complains..but sometimes i have difficulties..i can't satisfy everyone's request..i know everyone wans this..but i can't let everyone have this..not that i don't want to let you have it..but it's really beyond me..i know your pains..i understand ur pains..but i only have limited capabilities to do it..sigh..i felt guilty..so guilty..sigh.. i don't understand.. seriously don't understand it at all.. wanted to cut botak yesterday for CCF but i browsed the site again and i found out that i need to registered before going through the so-called ceremony..so silly of me..anyway..sooner or later..i'll go botak..1 more month left..before i go into a place where all man calls it "prison".. =\ -i have not seen her cried for a very long time..- -when she cried..i felt hurt..so so hurt- -please don't cry again..i'll always be there for you- -i know you won't read this..but don't cry again..=]- [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [10:35 PM] [Friday, July 28, 2006] finally i blogged!!..ahaha..anyone happy?..lol..ok la..i've been quite busy for the past few days. mainly because i have been involve as chief trainer for casualty evacuation workshop for past 2 saturdays. the first saturday i had to teach the theory part of the evac to the kids..followed by instructor's teacher with their own groups..i must say..the instructors play a very important role in the workshop..without them..i'll die of a terrible death..haha.. second saturday was quite hectic with the teaching of radio com..did theory accred papers with the kids and most of them pass..hehe..shan't elaborate more.. following day..the cadets had their practical test for their evac..discipline wasn't up to standard that made me scolded them..anyway..most of them passed their accreds..congrates to them..and there are those who failed..try harder next time... anyway..on monday..celebrated my uncle's birthday..haha..so farni la..we gave him a c***** and was like so funny giving him these stuff..haha.. yesterday went cycling with the HSA friends..so fun..cycling from one end of ECP to another end of ECP..my stupid bike..duno what happened to the gear..can't ride fast..curse that bike..in the end was the slowest among everyone..ahaha..anyway..after that we went to eat the foodcourt next to ECP macs..after that took a cab back to HSA...2 guys (shan't mention who to protect their identity) was exchanging **** using their handphone..haha..so farni la... today..this morning...woke up quite early..why!?..coz i had diarrhea..haha...but not only me who had it..the rest of my HSA friends all had diarrhea too..haha..we suspect was the indonesian grilled stuff we ate yesterday..but congyi suspect Alison's cookies was the cause of it..haha..but i think it wasn't la..since her sis ate alot of it..haha..yah..so..we pushed all the blame to the ECP's foodcourt indonesian restaurant..the grilled stuff there...beware..dun eat there..haha..looks tempting..but dun be tempted..if not u'll have a full day of diarrhea like me..haha.. ok ok..shall blog more again soon...bye [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [9:32 PM] [Wednesday, July 05, 2006] yawn..so tired..now in office working..boring.. anyway..nothing to blog about these past few days except telling u guys that i've been rotting @ home since sunday..haha..did nothing much..didn't go out..no one to date with..guess my life is always that.."SIAN".. so fast..another 2 months and i'll be botak head..before going in, got many RC events. Need help for First Aid Competition in August..i need ushers for that day..coz i Usher OIC..hehe..pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls help me..haha.. ok la..tag my board if u wan to help ok?..lol..=D.. Tag Replies: brose: haha..we promoting gay-ism in Red Cross..haha.. esther: ok la..my tagboard got prob..haha...u're innocent little "mad" girl...ok?..lol.. wen: old chang kee nice mah..no mehz?..update liao la..lol.. [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [9:11 AM] [Tuesday, June 27, 2006] ok ok..i know i have not been blogging for awhile..yes yes..i know people wants to read..so here am i blogging..but won't be blogging much today.. i just came home from SYF FAD 2 hrs ago..feel so tired..but much we had much fun.. oh yes..i swear i didn't use that thing to see mei mei..i was seriously watching out for casulties.. haha..so funny la..all think i chikopei go watch mei mei at grand stand..can't even see their face how to watch...ops..haha.. i really swear i didn't use that to see girls (trying to emphasize that i'm innocent). hahaha.. today's SYF was busy..kept calling out to tell them which UG was down..first run was the worst..but was better in the second run.. went back HQ..did some fun stuff with the marching cont. people. had dinner..hear alot of things..but i shan't elaborate.. Ambrose with his pencil and eraser theory..hahaha..not to foget sharpeners..haha.. Met Jianfu on the way back in the train.. went home..very tired.. well..this ends what i did today...if you wanna know more..come and ask me..haha... [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [12:50 AM] [Wednesday, June 21, 2006] yay..i'm officially outta NYP.. ok..nothing much for from that i would cry for or hope for.. that school totally...scandalous..school of scandals..lol.. ok..i'm being laughed at for being a shy boy by many..haha..nvm..haha..it's nothing bad being shy..haha.. My outfit today looks like a disaster. I wore a pink shirt with stripes and a yellow pokydot tie!?!.. aiya..the combination sucks..i feel so wierd wearing it..haha.. feel so shy when i go up on stage..haha..but i manage to walk there shake the person's hand, take the cert and go..haha..after that go back to my sit..haha..after awhile..ITS OVER!!..haha.. went to take some pictures with friends..mingle around.. after some realisation..i found out that my class isn't so united afterall.. i guess only minority of us goes around and mingle with others takes pictures, etc...the rest is with their own clique..felt so divided..sigh..nvm.. while going off..this guy who makes a bronze plate or something replica of the cert..i kept insisting "No, Thanks"...and my dad was.."Ok, lets go get it."..Then i again said, "No need." The guy answered back rudely say, "Your parents want ma." Got so pissed by his rude behaviour. But never mind..shan't blame him..he's making a living anyway. Ok...went home...jogged..came home..now here blogging...shall blog more when i have time.. =D [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [8:46 PM] [Monday, June 19, 2006] monday..a start of a new week..boring..as usual..rot at home..rotting like hell..quick..i need a date!!..ahaha..*refering to some people*.. =P two more days to my graduation to get my diploma..i'm so excited..yet so worried.. i'm excited because i get to see my poly friends again..but i'm worried coz i rarely get on stage to recieve prize or award or certificate..i worried i'll make stupid stuff and feel embaress..argh.. i'm such a shy boy!!..*sulk* i feel not prepared for the graduation..my pants seems like it shrank somehow. Either the pants shrank and became shorter or i grew taller. ahaha..shrughx man..i think i will look idiot when i go for graduation. i don't look nice in long sleeve shirt and pants..argh!!..regretting now for replying to NYP that i going for graduation..nvm..i shall try to act as if i'm still looking good..hehe.. ok ok..i blog liaoz..yiwen wants to read..but yiwen better tag more often..if not i'll stop blogging..haha...=P ok ok..blog tmr..tataz... [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [9:40 PM] [Sunday, June 18, 2006] ok ok..i think i shall update before it becomes staled..hehe..if u're happy about my updates..tag my board!!..if u're unhappy about my updates..tag my board to express ur unhappiness..i shall entertain u if i have the time..haha.. ok ok..been working at HSA for 3 weeks already..that explains why i didn't update for long..if u're wondering what's HSA..it means Health Sciences Authority..if you still do not know what is that..den i shall have no comments.. anyway..past 3 weeks was hell..waking up early to go to work..and going home late clocking hours..argh..and also catching up of data entry into the new program..it sux la..a slow sucky program..and not to forget..full of problems and errors..but nevertheless...i still love the people who worked with me and the people there..very nice people..sometimes gossips and scandals are always looming around..*whistles*.. k..today and tomorrow are my rest days..and i'm here..nursing myself back to health.. I'm a SICK BABY!!!.. =[ after eating too much fried fishes..made myself too heaty..*kAboom*..fever + sore thorat + body aches + giddiness...argh..hate this feeling!!...moreover..my stomach is adding fuel to fire from doing too many push ups the day before..argh.. shall go and rest more now..bye..shall update more often..hehe.. =] [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [12:54 PM] [Saturday, May 27, 2006] Have you ever wondered that the person you love actually does not love you from the beginning.. Have you ever wondered the friends that are close to you actually are putting a false front.. Have you ever wondered.. i've been thinking on and off for past few weeks..trying to self-reflected at myself.. what have i been doing for the past few years of my life.. i have regretted alot.. i lost many friends that i was once close.. i lost a love which i didn't cherished.. i felt an urge sometimes to go to some corner to cry out loud.. but.. i can't.. sometimes..i feel jealous of many people.. jealous of them when they have their best buddies to pour their hearts out to... jealous of couples that are so loving.. i had those before.. but those relationship and friendship does not last long.. many tried to understand me..but failed.. probably because i'm alone for too long.. i tried to let many people understand me..know me.. but i guess i have been too long a loner.. probably i've lost the feeling of having to pour out to friends.. probably i've lost the feeling of loving somone.. probably i'm just a lost sheep..trying to find a way back to the herd.. maybe i'm just thinking too much... [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [2:23 AM] [Friday, April 14, 2006] ok ok..i shall blog..b4 it goes rotten..hehe.. this week was quite a fruitful week i think..mondy went with Alvin to celebrate Kaiying's and Cheng Hong's belated and early burfday @ Swensens..got to sabo these two..ermm..ladies?..(can't call them kids anymore)..hehe..yah..everyone in the rest. was like looking @ us..and i think seriously..our table is the most messiest..with chilli pepper, cheese and all sort of spices "spray" onto the table..yah..poor attendant..have to clean up our mess..ok..after that..home time..while driving..Miss Phua was trying to irritate me by puling down the armrest..so in the end..Miss Phua was the last person to be dropped off..so hilarious la..bullying her in the car..haha..ops..=x.. Wednesday..went to Zheng fa live seafood @ Marina Bay with RC peepz..we had 2 tables..one the halal table and the non-halal one..everyone was craving for the pork la..keep coming to eat the pork..haha..brose kept on slaughtering the prawns..but i ate most of it..haha..had quite alot of fun and laughter during the cooking session..oh yah..one thing..P2 SERIOUSLY don't know how to cook!!..haha..jin de liaoz chu fang..chu bu liao tian tang...(can go into the kitchan..but canot come out of heaven) ..haha..imagine P2 cooks her stuff..almost all her food cooked is chao ta..haha..so hilarious..den everyone kept on buying drinks..den later play abit of datona..den go home..fetch Josh, Max and brose..those guys..i was driving at 90km/hr..max unwind the window and shout WHITE MAGIC..and alot of farni stuff..we also went to Marina Bay Jetty there..wanted to shout si bangalas at the bangalas..haha..was so farni la..that u can't stop laffing..then went to see Ah Kua at Changi Village b4 heading home.. today..went to CHIJ(TP) for unit visit ALONE!...ok..no one wanna pei me..talked to the YO..she's a very nice lady and quite friendly as well..then talk to the sec 4s...shan't comment on the blog..hehe..yup..went home..tired..haha.. nowadays sleep so late..duno what to do..aimless liaoz..hehe..i wanna quickly go in army and get out of there..if not, i ORD later..hehe..hmm..have been thinking alot nowadays..i've been thinking whether should i go for it or should i not..but i'm not at least 100% confident myself..i don't know whether it will turn out well..i want to try..but i'm afraid..i'm afraid..but i want to try..sigh..i don't know whether i can make the decision..to go for it or not to go for it...in a dilemma..sianz..ok la..blog liaoz..shall blog again soon..i hope.. [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [2:27 AM] [Sunday, March 19, 2006] Ok, finally blog, don't know why so many people interested in my life, i shall blog for the sake of them..haha.. yesterday had a busy but great time.thanks to everyone who came They are :- Max Josh Alvin David Wilson Cheekeong Ambrose P2 Huda Joycelyn Amdis Ian Nelson Sooguan Qisheng Jeffery Joel Mingzhen Cheryl Shuling Elame Cell gdotter and many more from my family members.. if i have miss anyone out..i'm sorry..can't remember so much in a seh state..lol.. yah..for those who don't know what is going on yet, i had my 21st b'day yesterday. although my b'day is on 23rd decided to hold in yesterday..yea..anyway..drank 2 cups full of beer..and i almost knock out..darn..and i was smeared with..err..kiwi?..haha..(Alvin..ur kiwi still at my hse btw..lol) ya..was busy the whole day..fetching people here and there..rushing here and there..sianz..thanks guys for ur prezzie also..although i don't know i'll wear it or not..but yah..hahaha.. alritez..nothing much to do these past few days..been slacking so much..haha..i'm growing fatter..help!!..lol..kk..i shall go exercise more often..yup.. next week..GY's promotion..finally my kids are grown up..gonna pass out soon..still remember when i came into GY..they look so kiddy..now grown up to become leaders..so proud of them..and myself..haha..=D..anyway..many things happened during the past few weeks..i think we should work in a cohesive manner..although i agree that everyone has different views..but some views may be good..some views may be bad..we should eliminate those bad views and focus on the good one..heh.. anyway..lastly..thank everyone for coming..really appreciate it..=]
[fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [2:16 PM] [Saturday, March 04, 2006] ok..if i don't blog now, my blog will got stale and no one will want to read it. I shall update..hehe..since i'm so bored.. well..the past few weeks..have been busy preparing my presentations and also doing my work..hope that i can get at least a B for that module..*prays* yesterday had prata with my secondary school friends near my house.. they were suaning each other..like always..haha..yeah..its been quite long since i see them suaning each other so much..haha..was so hilarious la..talked abit about our FYP..if you all don't know is called Final Year Project..yeah..crapped alot..until 1 am..then some of them wanted to go play majjong at Nelson's hse..but in the end they came to my house play...err..."silent" majjong..haha..yah..was silent alritez..den i was too tired i went to sleep..hehe..sorry guys.. next morning..woke up by Quiyu's call..the kids are already at Bendemeer Sec..well..for those who don't know why they are there..today is footdrill competition..yah..then i didn't go.. coz i went out..another thing is my appearance would not make much of a difference in their standard and may cause negative side effects instead..but whichever the case..i know you kids did ur best..i'm always proud of you all..whichever the results..is the experience that counts..not the results..i know some of them are really upset beacuse u all put in alot of effort..i hope this will push you all to do much better in the near future..yeah.. heh..well..next week is my last week in GIS..time flies..it has already been 5 months since i'm in GIS..well..it has already been almost 2 years.................................. i got to realise that i don't know how a girl really feel.. i don't know what they really want.. i can't even understand girls.. i have so many things to say.. i just can't say it out.. i feel so remorseful.. i really want to say this.. i only can dream to say.. i'm really sorry..to you.. i know that sorry will not be enough to make up for what i have done.. i know that by saying sorry.. i won't be able to get you back.. i seek to apologize to you in person.. i want to say.. i'm truely sorry.. Here Without You A hundred days make me older Since the last time i saw your pretty face A thousand lies have made me colder And i don't think i can look at this the same All the miles that seperate Disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face I'm here without you, baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And i dream about you all the time I'm here without you, baby, But you're still with me in my dream And tonight, there's only you and me... The miles just keep rolling As the people leave their way to say hello I've heard this life is overrated But i hope that it gets better as we go I think about you baby And i dream about you all the time I'm here without you, baby, But you're still with me in my dream And tonight, there's only you and me... Everything I know, and anywhere I go It gets hard but it won't take away my love And when the last one falls when it's all said and done It gets hard but it won't take away my love I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And I dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight girl, there's only you and me.. [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [11:02 PM] [Tuesday, January 24, 2006] When i was in Primary One, I went to Saint Gabriel's Primary School at Lorong Chuan. It wasn't a great school, everyone is like me, attending their first day of formal education. Many cried for their parents. Many unfamiliar faces around you. Making you scared, contributing fear and thus making you want to cry. Well, i did not cry. I've learn to be independent without my parents around me when i was much younger. I was in that school for six years. During this six years, i came to realised that i'm the shy, quiet type. I rarely mingle around with other students. I have limited number of friends. I'm alwasy teacher's "guai-kia". I still remember there was a time when i was Primary 3 or 4. My classmate was teaching some art & craft to my another classmate. Being curious me, i watched him do. After he finished doing, i wanted him teach me how to do it too, but he rather teach my friend than me. At that time, i felt so hurt. My classmate would rather not teach me and avoid me and teach my other classmate. At that time, i realise i need a friend. A best friend. During the years in Primary school, i made alot of friends. But there are non that i can say truely are my best friends. Although i don't have any best friend, i still treat my friends friendly and nicely. I still remember one time that one of the big bullies in my class was bullied by another guy from secondary school. He came down to the Primary school just to beat him up. After the incident (he sat beside me btw), i talked to him and helped him. He improved his attitude towards me. I don't considered him as my best friend. Some of my classmates may despise him for his bad attitude, but i treat him like my other friends. To be continued....
[fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [4:49 PM] [Thursday, January 05, 2006] Since young, i was taken care by 2 wonderful women, my paternal and maternal grandmas. My parents at that time was working and had no time to take care of me. So, alternatively, both my grandmas took care of me. Although i can't remember much when i was young, i knew this 2 women were painstakingly took great care on me. Perhapes that's why i have great respect for women, though not all women =]. Soon later, i got into Kindergarden. I was so mischivious at that time that i even play pranked on teachers and classmates. Had alot of fun but was asked to stand outside for punishment in the end. I still remembered that i was involve in a theft case. Everyone was looking for a missing 1o cent coin at that time, which unknowingly landed into my pocket. I didn't know how it landed there and being malign as a thief isn't nice. After that, i think the mist cleared up somehow. But everyone looked at me in a different approach soon after. At a glance, is the graduation of my kindergarden. Was to perform some dance with chairs. First time doing such a show and in front of so many people. On the actual day, was scared stiff when so many people crowded the hall. Never in my life have i seen so many people infront of me and my guts was about to jump out at that time. I performed what i did during rehearsals and it turned out fine. Soon, i graduated from Kindergarden and head on to Primary school. -To Be Continued- [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [8:48 AM] [Tuesday, December 20, 2005] ok ok..laiNe is buGGing me to updAte..so i shaLL updAte!! wahaha..notHIng muCh haPpened..juSt woRk, eAt anD slEep..mY lifE is veRy boRing..hahA..even i'm borEd to teaRs..lol..anywAy..yesterDay haD soRt of a claSs gathEring..shaN't sAy the details as only like 1/3 of the class went..helD at lAu pA sa (old market)..fooD didn't taSte that great..but quite fun nevertheless..lol..ouR idea havE beeN stolen!!..haha..or leeched..lol..we actuaLLy did a marketing presentation on a new product called a gumMy candY..initially was anti-oxidant chewing gum, but later we changed it..after we finished thAt project, we had intention of further maRket out the producT..howeveR..now is bEEn useD as a projecT and tHEy arE usINg it to maRket oUt in NYP!!!..argH!!..i'm the co-founder of thAt product..i'm supposEd to eaRn somE too!!..argh!!..yah..sort of competiting with Singapore Poly..the hav chocolate..we havE gUmmy candY!..haha..shaLL see we the founders of the product can market out inTo the society..heh.. ok..jus recieved some pictures complimentary of Louise..  (Louise on left and Mayumi on right) (pictures abit small so u may not see it clearly..hahaha..) if you're wondering who is that girl beside Louise..that's Mayumi..from the name..i think most of you all can guess that she's a Japanese..ain't she pretty?..haha and she's only like 19 years old..haha..guyS out there..if yOu want her number or address..can get it from mE..haha..but BE WARNED..don't try anything funny..she's a married women..hahaha..if any of you wondering how i knew her..she was my host and guest when i was in Kitago Exchanged Programme in Sec 3..haha..its been 5 years since i last saw her..and i'm glad and happy for her when she got married about 1-2 years ago.. hehe..shall go a point to go back there if i have the time..hehe..anyway..she has a one year old daughter and is 5 months pregnant (source by Louise)..and studying University..so she's a wonderful mom..haha..altough she can see this but shall wiSh her luCk and a haPPy days ahead.. kk..i shall stop..too long a blog..hahah..tataz...and tag!!..lol.. SM: huh?..love who?..lol.. laine: as you can see..i've updated..haha.. evacbronzecadet: haha..my details are above the tagboard?..haha..my pix are also above..=] [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [8:36 AM] [Monday, December 05, 2005] ok..haven been blOgging for a loNg time..deleted my previOus poSt becOZ it was distuRbing and soMe irritatIng duMbo tAgging on my boArd sAying soMe nastY stuff..well..such people aren't woRth mY time critisizing oveR..i havE better things to do..=] yeApz..a brAnd neW dAy..i'm gonnA meet my targEt soon..wahahaha..shall not sAy it ouT duE to peoplE may critisizE it..yeah..ok..shall talked abt last weekend..had accreditations for evac last saturday..noThing much with the accreditations..went homE..den slack ard doing nothing..yah..lol..mY saturdAy jus wasted liddat..suNday was also thE same..noThing much..went out wif family though..yeah..today..at work..is boring..another boring protocol to get on..heh..yup...oh btw..goOD luck to Alina and doggie..haha..can see u all are under alot of stress..lol..ok ok..workiNg time..tata [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [8:52 AM] [Wednesday, November 16, 2005] yeS yeS..i'vE finaLLy gOt my licensE!! wahaha..kaka..muahaha..foR thosE whO don't knoW what iS it..it iS my driving license..hehe..yeS..narroWly escapeD failing by 2 poinTs!! lol..got 18 poinTS..pheW..so closE..thE testeR was very lenient la..but alWAys blaCk facE..idiot!..haha..but i forgiVe him and forgEt..coz hE let me pAss!! lol..yeS..i thot i was gonna fail coz i know i did alot of wrong things..argh!..but nevetheless..hahaha..i still maDe it thRough..gottA thank God for youR blessinGs!! lol...anD eveRyonE..lol..yeS..i can drive dRive drive..lol..yAh..so haPPy..when the instructor tick pass..i was like smiling and smiling aLL the wAy..lol..i don't even carE i wAs late for work..haha..tOo happY liaoz..lol..kk..gotta go homE le..blOg another time..tata!! [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [5:49 PM] [Monday, October 24, 2005] yAy..anothEr 5 miNutes...off woRk..haha..gOing hoMe neveR feLt so gOOd b4..haha..especiaLLy bEing in a bOring place doiNg bORing thIngs..haha..my supErvisor won't be here for 10 dAys..till next week..haha..sO i can coMe late and gO home eARly..bwahahaha...lol...eveRyone muSt be thINking what a slackEr am i!!!..haha..aiya..boRn to be liddAt..hoW can chanGE...leOpard nV chanGEs its spOtty!..heh..yUp..noThing muCh in my life..juS woRk and woRk..and wAtch aniMe..haha..yeAh..bOring life la..lol..siansaTion..lol..ok..GO HOME LIAOZ!!..lol...i'll blOg again whEn i havE time..haha..peoPle..taggeD my boaRd!!..it lookS so deaD..hehe..HomE hOme anD aWay...~~~~ [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [5:55 PM] [Tuesday, October 11, 2005] yeAh..21 weEk and 4 dAys leFt..coUnting doWn!! haha..okie..now 9am in the mornINg..no one is in thE office..haha..so conTinue blOGging..lol..haish..my exAm reSults ouT..not bad la..but still not gooD enouGh..sigH..nvM..yeAhz..nowadAys i've been going homE earlY...coZ my supervisor not aroUNd.. lol..i thiNk if i contInue to do tHis.. i think the supeRvisor won't get to see uS liaoz..lol..basicallY..woKing at GIS was enjoYable yet borINg to kiLL you..haha..thAt's how borIng life science iS..repeaT and repeAt and repeaT the thIngs u do..till u boreD to teaRs..lol..so..thosE wAnna go in Life sciEnce..PLEASE DO CONSIDER IT CAREFULLY!!!..lol.. LinkamaniA in 32 DAYS TIME!!!..lol..and dRiving exAms..35 DAYS TIME!!!..sigh..so many importAnt thingS..argH...ok ok..i shaLL stOp..lol..if nt i'll blOG abt sAd stuff..lol.. tAta.. [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [9:07 AM] [Wednesday, October 05, 2005] okie..i'm bloggIng eveRydAy coZ it is reaLLy reaLLy too borEd..haha..iT is suCh a hassle to waKe up so earLy in the morNing..argH..hate this kiNd of life..hehe..yah..gonna spend aNOther 22 weEks and 2 days wAking up earLy and go to work..and paid only for 3 mONths!!..now my ez-link caRd tOp up 10 bucKs twicE every weeK..haish..kIds ouT there usIng 45 cents..after O levels..unless u're going JC..u're gonna pay and pay..lol..hiAsh..i don't knoW what to blog..am supposed to read notes on genomics..but is so terribly long and difficult to understand that i lost all interest in it..hehe..k..i think i go liaoz..if nt supervisor see i die..lol..tata.. [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [11:34 AM] [Tuesday, October 04, 2005] okie..fiRst bLOg aftEr attachmenT..lol..yeAh..attaChed to GIS..nicE place..lol..buT hafta wAke up so earLy..*yaWn*..lol..worSt part wAs...or perhapes the best part..lol..i'm the torn among the roses..lol..if u know what i mean..lol..yah..first day of attachment..was quite boriNg..read articles..read read and more reading..sianz..hehe..always fall asleep..but luckily my supervisor was not around..hee..yah..blogging during attachment..this shows how boring is it..lol..especially doing dry lab work..argh..I WANNA DO WET LAB!!..haish..i thot i won't be doing anymore bioinformatics..hiash..anyway..i blog later if i can..lol..now go read article and do my stuff..lol..tata!!.. [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [9:07 AM] [Friday, September 30, 2005] yeah..i'm finally baCk to blOGging..haha..anYone miss me!?..lol..yah..i think somEone out there will..haha..anyway..my blOg has been stagnant for awhile..so..if it hasn't been breeding mosquitoes..den is kinda wierd..haha..yuP..so those reading my blog out there..feel freE to tag tag tag tag..but dun flood..hahaha exAms are OVER OVER OVER GONE DEAD DIED-ED PASSED AWAY MURDERED WADEVER!! lol..i'm so happY that i won't be muGging for exAms again..at least for now..haha..yeah..O level kidS out there and thosE taking final yeAr exams..mUg haRd..den PLAY HARD..hahaha...gOod luck tOo..lol..foR pOlY plpp...PARTY HARD! lol.. okAy..going crAnky..hehe..yeah..this blOg will still continue be the place where i blog, rant, scold, talk abt happy and unhappy stuff..hehe..yeah..like the same old blog..i got 1 unhappy stuFf..hais.. recently..i've got this feeling that something had happened to her..or something bad..i don't know why i've got this wierd feeling since i already moved on..but why am i having this funny feeling..i don't know..probably i have not really move on yet..sigh..i duno..i wanted to ask her..but..probably nothing much..so didn't ask her..sigh..am i not forgetting..i want to forget but i can't..i can feel like the torn on the rose..once pricked..it feels so hurt, painful and bleeding profusely..i don't want that feeling..i jus want a nEw verSion of knEe..yes..knEe is changing..yes..he is..but that feeling dragged him back to where he started..sigh..well..knEe won't think abT it anymore..movE on KnEE!!!!.. heh..okay la..i blog till here...blog again another day..tata.. 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Ms. Phua..if u see this..sorry for nT sms u thAt night..coZ i reaLLy very tired..hehe..sorry Ms. Phua..hehe..=] [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [11:32 PM] [Monday, June 20, 2005] iT's beEn a loNg time since i blOgged..i don't knoW what to bLog..i'm juS thInking too muCh..i don't whY sHe kePt appeAring iN my miNd..i trIed to foRget her but i can't..i aLways teLL myseLf that iT is over..yes..is ovEr..but i cAn't sEems to leT go..i kePt mysElf bUsy..but it doeSn't sEems to woRk..whY am i alwAys likE that..whAt can i dO to mAke myseLf forgEt you.. weLL..it iS makiNg me so miserable..siGh.. anYway..back to my lifE..sO muCh tHIngs to do..yes..NAPFA is COMING!!!..trAining veRy haRd noW for it..*jiAyou*..quite woRried abOut my 2.4km run..coZ i'm nT a lOng distance runNer..trYing to jOg, pUsh up, siT up..baCk to basic..hehe..mUs train paCks liaoz..nO more "uniteD naTions"..lol..muS splIt the nAtions inTo differenT parts..hehe..pAss few wEeks have beeN gOing hoMe latE..last weEk wEnt to HOugAng sEc cAmpfire..so farni..thE cAdets there..stArt of campfirE..cheeRing waS "dead"..but afteR that improvEd..coZ i wAs therE?..haha..trYing to bE BHB..dEn weNt suppeRing..reaChed hOme 1am..zz..dEn thuRsdAy wanTed to go foR the SDC cHalet..bUt tied up wiTh alOt of hw..so didn't gO..sorry peePz..i didn't gO..but still hafta pay..zzz..but i went oN fridAy..heh..reacheD home latE also..haik..sAturday and suNday didn't do much stuFf..jus plAy and surf net for my projects..oh yah..mY DrIving prActicaL test is on 15 NovemBer~~..haha..soRry peepZ for thosE whO wanna siT my caR..hafta waIt loNg loNg tiLL i paSs..hehe..k liaoz..i'll bLog again if i goT time..hehe..tAta everyone.. [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [1:20 AM] [Wednesday, June 08, 2005] iT's beEn somE tiMe sincE i've blOggeD.yeAhz.coZ i'vE got soMethIng i'm nOt veRy haPPy abOut.thosE pLpP oUt theRe.if yOu arE reAding thiS.plS beAr in mInd thAt we onLy neeD yoUr contribuTions.we'rE nt asKing yOU to plAn iT.yah.peoPle tOOk tIme to plAn tHis 2 mOnths aGo.anD oUt of 80+ oF you.only a quAter are wiLLing.whAt thE heLL.iT haS onLy beeN 6 God DaMn mONths anD i'Ve goT plPP.nT inteResteD.nOt frEe.hEy.peoPle inFormeD yOU moNths ago anD you'rE sAying yoU're nOt frEe.wHO arE yOu trYing tO kId heRe.nOt inteResteD.weLL.i gueSs thosE sAid nOt interEsted doEsn't vaLue yOur friEndshIp afTer sO manY moNths.yOu aLL don't EVEN APPRECIATE peOple's eFfort iN oRganisiNg it.a bUnch of dAmn seLfish people i've sEen.iF yOu haVE reaLLy vaLiD rEasoNs foR nOt goIng.we'll undErstAnd.bUt.heAring nOT interEsted anD nOt frEe.reaLLy disAppOint mE veRy mUch.veRy mUch.iT shoWs tHAt 6 mOnths agO.yOu aLL didn't leArN a God damn tHinG.nVm.whOeveR is reaDing tHis pOst noW.yOu peoPle knOW who YOU are.i'm nOt gONna sAy muCh.i'm reaLLy disAppOInted.iN thoSe stUpid excusEs.dAmmit!.............. [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [6:52 PM] [Sunday, May 29, 2005] well well..i'm bAck by unPopulAr demAnd?..lol..anYway..i shoUld blOg..if nt wiLL go stale..lol.. anYwaY..scHOol is staRting tmR..siAnsAtion..anOther semester of chIonginG..haha..havEn even gOt aLL mY noteS..hehe..shiok...11am start school..hahaha..slack in the morning..ain't that grEat..hahaha..eveRy mondAy is like thAt..so cool huh~..well..noThing muCh haPPened in my lifE..hehe..i've alreaDy stoPPed thinking of her..loOking forwArd.. hehe..well..at leaSt i'm another stEp towArds my neW year resoLution!!...hahaha..gOt my finaL theoRy resULts..and...vrooM my wAy to my license..so eaGer to driVe..lol..coZ can chIOng anywAy in S'pore..hahaha..okAy...neXt few wEeks i'm rathEr buSy..campfires and camps thAt i'm attendinG..hehe..anD chAlet + alOt of driVing leSsons..hehe..bEen wAsting my time..now shOuld buckLe up anD chiOnG!! lol..okay..noThing muCh in my life currentlY..hehe..jUS hope thAt my kidS will do weLL for ULP and aLso CAC..hehe..i knOW they'll do it dE..hehe..okAy..sigNing off..tata...
[fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [7:00 PM] [Saturday, May 14, 2005] iT's beeN wEeks sIncE i bLoggeD.mAny thinG occUred.heh.tOO buSy wiF my lifE tOO.wiF uPcomIng orientatIOn anD stuFf.2 morE weeKs.bACk to sCh.dreAd it yEt wAnt it.mAybe iS a gOOd thing.weLL.pAst feW dAys becAme tHick-skiNned, goiNg to plAceS uninviteD.tHAt staRes that wAs bestowed uPon yoU, tHinKing whY arE u herE?.well.gOt soMeoNe inTo trOuble.not.more of an embaressment.dIdn't reaLLy tAlk muCh to tHat perSon.duno whY is iT so haRd to finD someonE wherE u cAn juS heaRd u coMplaiN anD whEn u foUnd thAt soMeone.pLpp staRt diStanCing awAy fRom yOu.it diDn't haPPen oncE.alOt of timeS.i wondEr hoW many peoPle reaLLy knOWs me.'ve beeN wiF 3 differeNt gals, yet in tHE enD iS juS an illuSion. firSt gal.didn't eveN lasted loNg.shE's juS plAying arOund.well.beIng a fooL for the firSt timE.weLL.diDn't boTher abOut it agAin.the sEcond gaL.well.was a desperaTE one.kindA anGRy wif her.scolded her coZ of her naive.but the naive one.is ME..sigh..third..nOt manY peopLe knowS abOut it.don't wiSh to talK abOut it eitheR.it iS an enDing whiCh i didn't reaLLy expect.well..so whAt's so greAt abT in tHesE r.shiP.well..never in mY life i ask oR evEn thiNk of a brEak uP.pLpp mAy thiNk it is faithfulness.well.i tHink i'm dAmn stupId in thiS kinD of tHIngs.i dUn undersTand gals. liKe whAt nu eR sAid.i thInk evEn if tHerE's anOther gal wHo coME intO my life.i mAy nT accEpt it.i'm eSpeciaLLy tirEd.eveRyone is.i'm eSpeciaLLy tirEd thINking of thinGs thAt i'm nOt supposEd to think.yeS.thiS is mE.i mAy be a crAzy at timEs, suAning plpp at timEs.well.i diDn't wAnt to dO that.iS jus thAt i'm lOOkiNg for soMEthing to tAke my probLems awAy.soMe peoPle hAte me coZ i sUaned tHEm or buLLy thEm.bUt the reaL fAct is juS finDing a wAy to relEase all thoSe strEss.i'm juS tirEd. tOO tirEd....... [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [2:39 PM] [Friday, April 29, 2005] yEapz.foR thoSe wHo don't knOw, i'm enJoying mY boriNg hoLidAys.yAh.gOt thE urGE to gO oUt bUt weLL.gOing oUt coSt mE alOt of mOney.so i mIte as weLL stAy @ hoMe anD suRf the neT oR plAy soMe gaMes.tHat's hoW boRing mY liFe iS noW.yA.tHOse kiDs oUt theRe.gOOd lUCk foR uR exAms.muggeD haRd!.=] sO fAst.it hAs alReaDy bEEn aalReAdy a yeAr.i didn't wannA tAlk abOut it.but heaRing thE naMe oncE morE shOOk ouT alOt of queStions thAt i yeArn tO knOw.gueSs i'll nV knoW whAt'rE tHe answErs tO theSe queStions.everytIme i tHInk oF whY or whAt waS the reASon.i feLt that my lifE shOrtened aLOt.yes.i'm a hAppy maN.yeT unHappy @ thE sAme tiME.who cAn teLL me hoW am i feeLing noW.well.i alWayS feLt thAt mY name.mY fuLL namE is a cursE yEt a bleSSing.bLeSsing coZ i oncE knoW them.perhapEs thIS is my lifE.thAt God wAnted me to takE.nO onE iN this woRld woUld knoW hoW i feeL.yes.i undeRstAnd hoW peopLe feel.iF u feeL thAt tHe whOle worLD doeSn't caRe abOut yoU.therE'll be soMeone who caRe abOUt you.soMedAy, u'LL meeT that soMeone.well.as foR thE sAd me.iF the whoLe worLd doeSn't caRe abOut me.i'll juS bE in tHe lonEly corneR of the room.imAgining/dreAm abOut hAviNg onE.i wiSh i'll nv wAke up frOm that dreAm.coZ i don't dAre oR wAnt to fAce that harsh reAlitY... [fOOtwOrk] // [KnEE] // [12:14 AM] |
